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Several things are going through my mind.

1. First is New Zealand which is only 96 days away! Yesterday one of my managers at the book store asked if I was going to New Zealand because I was buying so many books about it. I almost froze. The "uh's", the "um's", and finally, the "yeah in May". I thought I had doomed myself. I still need to keep my job for three more months. Well, she just said "that's exciting," and moved on. It was then that I realized that she thought I was just 'visiting' New Zealand for a little vacation, not moving there. But who was I to correct her? So I didn't and took my book and left. Very quickly.

2. This whole kidnapping case thing with the two boys that were rescued. The media was all over it. I'm sure the first thing a boy who has been kidnapped for a few days, or the other one who was kidnapped for 4 years wanted to do when they were rescued was go on TV and tell everyone about it in great detail. I have no respect for Oprah who sits on her show and asks the boy on national and international television if he was 'sexually abused'. Why not let the world know his private business! Nor for And the magazines and newspapers and everyone who seemed to love exploiting peoples business! And the parents who let there child be on oprah and responses that sounded so rehearsed. These boys need help, not the media. Being kidnapped and abused is a very serious thing, not just some juicy piece of news that everyone will forget about tomorrow. I have more to say on this, but not the heart to say anymore.

3. Hollywood is a ghetto of sorts that people fall into and have a hard time getting out. It's all about conforming. It's very said to seeing our 'beloved stars', so to speak, focusing on dressing to impress, backstopping each other, cheating on each other, having babies together outside of marriage, divorces that happen way to commonly, arrogance, etc, etc, etc. There is a lot in common with the low class, inner city ghettos if you really think about. Ask me more about this later.

4. Dakota Fanning and the uproar about the movie at the film festival Good points on many sides. Maybe the movie is a good movie that needs to be shown. Maybe it's not. That's not the point. However, a young child should not be in a bed with a naked adult. Maybe and actress who was older (like 18) who played a young child would have been better. Or a stunt double. Or whatever. A child who is not old enough to see R- rated movies should not be put in that position no matter how 'grown' she feels. Also, faking a rape scene can be really hard on the mind for adults, and moreso for a child. Many thoughts on that. Ask me later.

5. How come all artsy film critics and peoples dress the same? Don't act like you don't know. Black turtle neck, or white old school wide-lapelled shirt, a black dress coat, and jeans. Oh yeah. Boots too. Can't forget the black snakeskin boots. Ha!

6. I'm artistically depressed and I can't seem to shake out of it. It's really bad because I have a commissioned piece to do, and it's about ready to be put on canvas.

7. There's a ton that still needs to be done with New Zealand. It can get overwhelming. Am I really doing this? And yet, I am. 96 days and counting.